To be able to share this news makes me overwhelmed with joy. Wiley and I are so excited to say that we are expecting a sweet baby in November! Our story is one that I’m so happy to share and I want you to know that I greatly appreciate you joining us. Your support and love is the world to me, and I mean it!
Late last year, I felt like I was hitting the emotional rock bottom of my life so far. In September, Wiley and I found out that our dog Tootsie, who we got together when we were in high school, and to this point had been our child, had cancer. She was living with terrible seizures caused by a brain tumor that eventually sent her to heaven. During that time we bought a house, lost 4 of our pet chickens to crazy circumstances, had to sell my beloved car that had given up on us, switched fertility doctors and my grandmother, who was 94, passed away.
Meanwhile, we were still trying to have a baby. But, month after month, had no luck. I woke up every day and made myself do all the right things. I told myself that I had to smile, that I had to have hope and that all was not lost (because it wasn’t, but sometimes it felt like it). Day after day, I encouraged and supported my husband because he was devastated by the loss of Tootsie. But throughout it all, I felt a little lost.
In December, we decided that it was time to do something good. It was time to give it all we had and try our best to make a baby. It had been a little over three years since we first started trying and to be quite honest, I was tired of waiting. So we prayed and we hoped and we made the decision to move forward with IVF. I didn’t feel scared because going into this process made me feel like there was a chance. I would do whatever it takes to be a mother and if this is what that meant then I was up for the challenge. So here we go…
We had our first appointment with the IVF specialists in early December and were on track to start injections later that month. We did our first shot on December 30th and it was the most excited I had been in months. For the next two weeks we did one injection each night. This was certainly a new thing in our holistic lifestyle, but we were willing to do whatever it took. To shorten a long story, after those two weeks we found out that we had to press pause on IVF due to insurance & financial reasons. The day we found that out was so hard. But, God worked it all out beautifully and two weeks later we were back on track! Our egg retrieval was scheduled for late February and our embryo transfer was scheduled for the fifth day following. Life was starting to feel better, but I learned that, while you’re basically being an at-home nurse (considering all of the shots and medications you have to take), it’s hard to slow down and really appreciate the journey. Each doctor’s appointment we had was wonderful. We passed all the tests with flying colors and were so excited for the big day. A few weeks later we had our egg retrieval, had great results and had a chance to breathe.
We ended up with 7 healthy embryos, a few of which were graded as “perfect” according to the doctor, and we transferred one of those embryos that we had prayed so hard for. On March 15th, Wiley answered the phone to receive the best news we had ever heard. “Congratulations, you are pregnant!” The very moment that he told me, all of the years of heartache and pain were washed away. In that moment, it was like it never happened. I felt the most joy that I’ve ever felt. It’s like you pray and pray and pray for your dreams to come true and in the back of your head your kind of think it might never happen, but then all the sudden, it does! I feel so incredibly blessed to even be able to type these words and to know that God has created an embryo that has become a fetus that will grow into a baby and we get to call it ours. I could shout it from the roof top because I am here to tell you that miracles, dreams and hopes do come true. When your dream becomes your reality, life seems like it couldn’t be better and I’m so thankful to be right there, right now.